I felt like I should try to do something within my limited options to try and make some money. It didn’t have to be a lot, just something, to show that I could contribute.
Vlogging was pretty popular and continues to be so, so I started vlogging on youtube and monetizing my videos. At some point in my videos I would say something along the lines of, “Hey if you like my videos, consider clicking on the ads, it helps me out a lot.” Because if I have learned one thing over the last decade, it’s that you should always ask for help if you need it.
Now, I didn’t know at the time that this wasn’t allowed. I thought it would be okay, since the ad partners were getting traffic from people who could potentially buy something and I would be making pennies and fractions of pennies every time it happened. But no, apparently this is considered invalid click activity. I wasn’t given a warning or a “hey you can’t be doing that, remove the content please” or a grace period of any sort. No, they just disabled the monetization. I wasn’t given a very clear answer when I asked why, just that there had been ‘invalid click activity.’
So since I couldn’t make money vlogging, I stopped doing the videos (also my life was pretty boring and I didn’t have much to talk about).
Now, since it’s been TWO YEARS+, I thought maybe the monetization could be reinstated. I’ve learned my lesson, I know what not to do now. And I’ve been divorced for a year, so this time, I’d be making content for myself, not because I need to prove my worth to anyone. I am disabled, so I am on a government fixed income, which is not very much. It’s not enough to have an apartment, so I have to live in my parents’ basement, which is often a stressful situation, since my father is completely unpredictable. If I could make enough to support myself, it would be a wonderful thing.
So I appealed to Adsense. I filled out the form they provided and they got back to me in about 3 hours, saying NO, my account is not eligible to be reinstated. No reason at all, no one I could directly reply to, just a link back to the general questions page. I asked them why, twice in email and once in the help forum, and have heard nothing. Pretty funny, since they got back to my appeal in 3 hours. If they could give me a REASON, maybe I could fix it. I would take down the offending content, I’d do whatever they told me to do, if only they would TELL ME.
So, I’m just fucking pissed. Because apparently Google doesn’t like it when you ask your friends for help, it doesn’t care if you’re disabled and can’t work and this is your only real option to make any sort of income on your own, and it doesn’t think I deserve an answer or a reason why I can’t monetize my videos.
Right now, I am making absolutely zero dollars for the content I have provided and would like to provide. And I don’t think that’s fair. I don’t think it’s fair not to be given a second chance when I didn’t understand the limitations in the first place. Now that I do, it’s unfair of them to not even give me a reason for their decision. And it’s unfair that I have to live in a stressful and abusive situation without a means of getting myself out of it.
This fucking sucks. Google, you fucking suck. You’re essentially an accessory to keeping me in an abusive situation. Your consumer service sucks, I deserve to know why you won't reinstate my Adsense account.